Let There Be Light | Anna

“For everyone who’s hit their limit, it’s not over yet, it’s not over yet. And even when you think you’re finished…it’s not over yet, it’s not over yet. Keep on fighting out of the dark into the light, it’s not over. Hope is rising, never give in, never give up.” - For King & Country

When my son was first born, I remember feeling so overwhelmed with the fact that he had special needs and would require so much medical attention. I felt like it was a never-ending battle between my own self-pity/selfishness and what God had ultimately and so beautifully placed into our lives. There was fear, anxiety, many unanswered questions, so many decisions and unforeseen difficulties that were and are thrown at us. But one thing I can say right from the beginning…there was peace and there was always a purpose. Each time we needed to make decisions, there was a peace in which direction to go. I truly can’t explain it…while I was fearful of what was to come or not to come…there was still a peace. Truly, beyond our understanding! We have always believed that everything happens for a reason and there is God-spoken purpose in each thing that we do. We don’t always know that purpose, which is frustrating, but it’s there. Whether it is in the teachers, doctors, nurses, therapists we meet daily with Ben, or people we meet in the grocery store, there is purpose in that. God has proved His purpose daily in our lives as a family and in our marriage. I have found myself being placed back in a similar situation with my mom now being diagnosed with acute leukemia. Yet so much of what we have gone through with Ben has prepared me for this other very difficult situation. Again…He has a purpose although we don’t know what yet.

My darkness to light story would be just that…when it feels like I’m finished, that I’m done, that I’m afraid and don’t know what to do….there is light…there is purpose…He is NOT finished! There is more of His grace and love to be shown through our lives and testimony. There is reason to keep fighting.